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New Job!

February 19, 2013

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Congratulations to me! I got a new contract today, my first ever freelance contract and i’m ever so excited. Apologies to my dear loyal regular readers who’ve waded through paragraphs of frustration this last month as i’ve agonised and agonised in a stress haze. That really isn’t me. A fun brunch with an old colleague, […]

Happy Anniversary…

February 18, 2013

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So the anniversary of the day me and THE GREAT LOVE met is coming up, and after six years of false starts, intensity of feeling, fear of admitting how we felt, and then overcoming that fear but freaking out about it all, I have written him a letter, which I’ll probably never send but wanted […]

I need a simple uncomplicated screw

February 17, 2013

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But I don’t know where to get it from. Whilst I wait for things to work themselves out with THE GREAT LOVE I needed a distraction, and thought I was cultivating something with FIT GUY from POF but we only met once and that fizzled out and didn’t go anywhere. It could still rear it’s […]

It’s better to respond than react…Part 2

February 17, 2013

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Old habits die hard When i’m not getting what I want from THE GREAT LOVE’s communication and I start getting angry about it, my brain still sometimes reacts immediately and says “he’s been with someone else / he had a better offer / he doesn’t really love me/ there’s there evidence I need to prove […]

Its better to respond than react… Part 1

February 17, 2013

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Now that a few days have passed since I felt like I wanted to tell THE GREAT LOVE that I never wanna speak to him ever again (aka REACTING – out of frustration mostly – read about it HERE); I am able to see things differently. Over the last few days I have been angry […]

This aint love, its craziness

February 15, 2013

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THE FACTS: 1. We agreed our situation is bizzare and a bit crazy, but mutually said ‘I love you’. The feeling of letting go of the past and just existing in a way that felt natural was hedonistic and there was an element of zen about the whole thing that felt different, almost like this […]

MINI RANT II

February 15, 2013

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Dear Not-So-Great-Love I don’t understand what game you’re playing, but yet again i’m unable to sleep and you’ve entered into my subconscious in the way that only you do – and i’m really angry with you. What makes you think you can just pick me up and put me back down whenever you feel like […]