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Love Addiction Workshop

October 23, 2013

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This weekend I am going to a workshop  for love addicts. I’m not 100% sure whether I am a love addict. Sometimes I am pretty sure I am. I can have moments, where I crave, fantasise, desire intensely a certain person whom I can’t have. If I am in crisis mode, it can feel like […]

Blip

October 16, 2013

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I’ve had a blip. A tiny one. I keep entertaining the idea of something that’s bad for me. A tiny hit, I tell myself. Just one small moment. A little something something. To feel nice. I hear myself tell people i’m over it. I hear words leave my mouth, and I believe them. Wholeheartedly. But […]

All I want from this blog…

October 14, 2013

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All I want from this blog is for someone to read something I’ve written and think ‘ah wow, i’m not the only one who feels like that then’ and for that to offer some kind of solace, comfort, or solution (be it temporary, or small). I still find it terribly self indulgent to write all […]

My Story: 10 Years of Living with Anxiety Part 3

October 14, 2013

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My first breakdown When I got back to London and found myself working in media, it was exciting at first, but there was a slow gradual process of the decline of my mental health. I was partying a lot, trying to hide my discomfort in the world, burying my sadness and confusion and pain with […]

My Story: 10 Year’s Living with Anxiety Part 2

October 14, 2013

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3 things I believe led me to a life with anxiety 1. Volunteering in Tanzania, on a community development project helping build a school, a village well, and working in an orphanage.  Seeing all these children who by western standards technically had ‘nothing’, yet were so full of life, so happy – I realised I’d […]

My first love

October 13, 2013

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I remember my first love. I was 16, he was 17. He had long hair in a pony tail, wore a bomber jacket and was a drum and bass DJ. In his bedroom. But actually to be fair, he did work as a DJ when he got into his twenties, in the crappy bars and […]

A poem

October 13, 2013

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I know its coming. I struggle to get up. I loathe, I pity, I make eggs. Someone give me a pill to swallow, a nice little pill, to erase my mind. Someone place a pillow over my head. To soak up the tears, that run down past my ears, and feel cold against my neck. […]