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Chapter 7. Wandering What I Am Going To Do With My Life

April 28, 2017


Wandering what I am going to do with my life I realised it was time to really work out what it is that I love doing, not what I’m good at. If I could buy myself some time to figure this out, then I could spend my time doing more of what I think I […]

Chapter 6. Job Seeking.

April 26, 2017


Job Seeking. From November I started seriously looking at new work opportunities. Having been self employed now for 4 years, I’ve always found a way to get by and this last 2 years it’s my business which has been the main source of income for me. Since the business income has been reduced since early […]

The Double Chapter: Hospital Visits & NYE

April 24, 2017


Hospital visits. In December my Mum got sick. It worsened towards New Year, and I sprung a surprise visit on her in hospital, which in turn surprised me. Her ward was full with 4 very sick ladies who were in advanced stages of liver disease. One died whilst she was in that ward. Two others […]

Chapter 5. Learning How To Let Go.

April 23, 2017


Learning how to let go. The trouble with learning how to let go, is that it really sucks to do so. Acknowledging to yourself that people you care about, and perhaps hadn’t yet realised weren’t going to be a part of your life anymore, who are trying to phase you out of their life, hurts. […]

Chapter 4. Friendships & Acquaintances

April 22, 2017


Friendship & Acquaintances. Friends come and go, some people come in and out of your life, and some stick around forever. Either way, when the people who matter to you drop off the radar or treat you in a way that suggests that they don’t hold that friendship as dear as you might, then it […]

Chapter 3. My first University lecture.

April 21, 2017


My first University lecture. In the same week as Death and Micro Romance, I delivered my first student lectures at a university in London. It was exhilarating, I enjoyed the classroom setting, I was nervous as hell, grieving but trying not to, anxious and well, a bit down and tired. I was having a stressful […]

Chapter 2: A Micro Romance

April 20, 2017


A Micro Romance. We’d shared a first kiss in his car a few nights before my birthday. Ah-ha! So this ‘love-at-first-sight’ thing still exists, I thought. He was cute and funny, and it was more than lust as we bonded about being in the same place our lives. He got my angst, shared my quest […]